When you hurt someone you care about, nothing about it is easy.
You hate yourself for it.
You look at your reflection like you are the worst person in the entire world.
It keeps you up at night as you toss and turn overcome with regret.
Because you know they did not deserve the pain you caused.
When you hurt someone you care about, all you do is look back regretting it.
You dwell in the past knowing you jeopardized a future.
But the reality of hurting someone you care about, is knowing you broke their trust that took a long time to build.
It’s knowing you broke their confidence in you.
It’s knowing you ruined the relationship.
It’s knowing and admitting you’re wrong, but what’s done is done and you don’t know how to make it right.
When you hurt someone you care about, you break your own heart for having done so.
And everyone might point at you saying you are at fault. You made that choice.
But it’s a choice that’s going to haunt you for a long time.
And you wish you could go back.
You wish it never happened.
But sometimes life’s greatest lessons are learned the hard way.
Sometimes it takes losing someone or something you care a lot about in order to grow.
You hope that they look at everything good you’ve done and it outweighs the one or two mistakes you made.
But sometimes there are mistakes that aren’t as easily forgivable.
Sometimes no matter how much good you might do, people only remember the mistakes you make.
Sometimes you do something and there’s no way you can go back to where you were.
Sometimes sorry isn’t enough to fix it.
When trust is broken, its kind of like trying to put the broken pieces of glass back together, but it will never look the same as it did before.
And sometimes you cut your fingers more trying to restore something like that.
So you pick up and you move on the best you can.
But it still hurts. You just have to learn to live with the choices you make, even the ones you wish you could take back.
Sometimes people might not ever forgive us, but the best thing you can do is learn from it. The best thing you can do is learn to forgive yourself. Because there isn’t enough regret or sorrow that can change what has happened.
But always remember you are not defined by the worst thing you’ve done to someone, but rather where you go from there.